Tuesday, April 14, 2009
NORMALIZING
Things seem to be more settled today.
Franklin is gone.
That is the bottom line.
Up to now, it has been about the circumstances, the story.
Now, it is the fact.
There are still feelings of sadness and loss but not the hammer blows of grief. There is a difference.
I can even laugh at this cartoon. Boy, would Franklin like this dog heaven!
People still keep showing up who do not know and need to be told. The woman at the supermarket who used to go visit him on her breaks while John and Franklin sat out in the parking lot waiting for me.
The woman who was his groomer. Very hard. She loved him too. Maybe I should have gone out to tell her in person.
The guy we knew from the evening walks whose last dog had the same thing happen to her just 6-8 weeks ago. He was on the street as I came home from the store. I stopped to tell him. His vet got him a new dog, Buddy, (against his wishes) almost immediately. I got two big wet kisses from the exuberant Buddy.
I am going to start walking after dinner tonight. Alone, of course. John has to do the dishes and his evening activities just as I have my mornings and that is when he will take his walk. Maybe we can get the walks together but, just now, it seems to be a good idea to keep the routine going.
No doubt, there will be people along the way to tell again and again. This is good.
Other parts of life are coming back into focus. I haven't blogged much. I am getting new ideas. Soon.
John wants me to get a new cell phone so mine can become a family backup. We will do that today. I may explain this to you later once I can understand it myself. I think we pour all the card content, his and mine, into my old phone and then we have a backup for both. Simple enough, eh? The guy at the store says that it is.
We can't use John's old phone because it fell into a toilet at a rest stop.
