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NET GAIN

I got a nice breakthrough today. I needed a piece of info and a backup doc for my taxes. It is a few years old and I didn't think I would need it at the time; so I tossed it. It was not a very happy document. It had to do with a debt owed me that did not get paid in full. The party went Ch. 11 and all I got was a low percentage; not even a tee shirt. I guess maybe throwing it out was a way of getting bad karma out of the space sorta kinda maybe. Or maybe I was just a little overzealous on my clean desk crusade.

Anyway, things have changed. This year, I have a chance to use that loss to offset a gain. The document suddenly is important again. No paper. I thought I would claim it without backup. Not a good idea if you are going to get audited. Then I thought I would ask the lawyer who handled the thing to send me a copy of the missing doc. No answer to my calls. Well, why would he? It still pisses me off though

Then I got the idea that somehow, somewhere, there would be a web answer. I Googled "bankruptcy courts". Got a place that helped me find the date and number of the case for ten bucks. Then I saw that the court itself has a site. Went there and got that I could get a copy of 'cases' if I had a password and username from another agency.....sort of a government PayPal thing. Did that. They took me without me having a law degree. Good thing. Then to the case, then to the motions, then to the documents, then downloaded the final payouts and there I am! My amount owed and the amount I got paid! Not a happy reminder of an unhappy event; but, as most of that is behind me, it approaches being a happy event. I persevered on the net, I made a complicated process work for me, and I got the doc.

One more thing: it turns out that I thought the loss was less than it actually is and so I get to claim even more. Are you still with me? Zzzzzzzzzz. Well I feel good about it and I used to feel bad. Conversion.

Look at this graphic. I wasn't the only one losing my ass to bankruptcies. Look at 'em climb. I was just a face in the crowd

TIME ZONED

Time is constant, regular, always the same. That is why it is called time, right? The perception of time, however, is anything but. A minute can take an hour, an hour can pass in a minute, and the future can seem endless or very short.

Yesterday was just one full bore freakout about not having enough time to do all the things there were to do. By last night at supper time, I was sorta frantic; problems of my own making. Reality? Well, there was stuff to do but not that much stuff, and time? Well, I am retired, baby. There is a lot of time. And do I need to do all these things now? No. But when the skeezix hits, all this reality is too hard to take in and when it gets goin' it is hard to stop it.

I used to live in this condition almost all the time. Yeh, time. Scarcity of time; let's hear it. Over the years I have found that daily meditation has way lowered the incidence. There is a lot more space between the gottagitgoin stuff. Remembering to breathe and just focus on the next indicated action helps too. One task at a time. Time takes care of itself; the perception of it needs a bit of work. And as good as it has gotten, every once in awhile, I forget it all and hit the button. Last night was it. It is OK. It reminds me that I am merely human and the big S man said that means I can err.